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Homesick (Original)

Type: Official
Writers: Doug Schadt , Grace Vanderwaal
Times Performed: 7
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Notes

“For my entire childhood, I thought, 'When I have an apartment in New York City, everything will be okay.' Now, I'm grown up, and I think, 'Everything would be okay if I was just waking up at seven and waiting for the school bus again'. Nostalgia is painful. We always look back at a moment we considered to be the epitome of perfection, but was it ever real?” (from the description of the music video)

"Homesick has the craving arms that never held me, a childhood bed that may never even have existed, like you remember your childhood as a place where the grass was saturated green and the air was full of the cleanest oxygen you ever smelled” (Grace to (Zach Sang, April 2025)

"For my entire childhood, I thought, ‘When I have an apartment in New York City, everything will be okay.’ Now, I’m grown up, and I think, ‘Everything would be okay if I was just waking up at seven and waiting for the school bus again’. Nostalgia is painful. We always look back at a moment we considered to be the epitome of perfection, but was it ever real?" (Interview with Pulp Magazine, May 2025)
Source: Grace Vanderwaal



Performances

2025.04.03 CHILDSTAR Final Act ()
2025.05.18 The Roxy Childstar Tour

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Releases

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2025-04-04Child StarLP3

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I'm homesick for a day that never happened
And I'm going to a place that I imagined
I'll awaken in my bed, the sheets are sweated
I don't know when the best of my life happened

[Chorus]
'Cause I waste every moment on the chase
Oh, it's never over
For the day that can't get any better
If it's not mine, it's gone forever
But then why do I remember?

[Verse 2]
I'm craving arms that never held me like a mother
Who's love's so safe it's deadly
And I'm small, and I'm warm and all that's real is the moment
And I'm no longer a woman, I just melt into the floor

[Chorus]
While I waste every moment on the chase
Oh, it's never over
For the day that can't get any better
If it's not mine, it's gone forever
But then why do I remember?

[Bridge]
All I ever wanted never did exist at all
I feel like my whole life has been haunted
By a child who never was
And all I ever wanted never did exist at all
I feel like my whole life has been haunted
By a child who never was

[Outro]
All I ever wanted never did exist at all, mmh
By a child who never was

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